Marriage is a Gift from God

By Jolene Engle, Contributing Writer

On December 19, 1997, on a sandy beach in Southern California, my Beloved etched words in the sand asking me to be his wife.

With an overwhelming love for him, I said yes!  I knew at that moment that God handed me, sinful, vile me, a beautiful gift that I was not worthy to receive.

He who finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor from the LORD.  Proverbs 18:22

 

We had a three month courtship and three month engagement which made our beginnings sound like a romantic fairy tale coming straight from Hollywood.

But what shortly followed was anything but.

Just one month after our vows I entered into the world of ill-health at age 28.  Surgery was in order because I had pre-cancerous cells of my cervix. The doctor told us we may never conceive as a result of this condition.  Being that I’m adopted, those were words I never wanted to hear.  I was devastated by the news.

But God gave us a gift….

On our one year anniversary I found out I was pregnant.  I was thrilled that God would allow me to have this gift; the gift of being a mother and to raise up a Godly generation.  Yet, as the boy inside of me was starting to grow so were a host of debilitating and chronic issues that would soon unleash in my body.

That young, vibrant, energetic, go-getter bride that my Beloved married was now becoming a distant memory……

It’s been a long road.  A hard road.  A road filled with the sting of life.  A road that many times I don’t feel like I can travel.  This laying down of my life.  Surrendering my all to the Lord.  The brokenness that I’m so familiar with; sometimes I think it climbs in bed with me, I know it climbs in bed with me because often times that’s where my tears fall the most.

But God gave us a gift….

After all those years of being a chronically ill wife, my husband became chronically patient.  The Lord was shaping him into the servant-leader that Christ desires a husband to be.  On the other hand, the Lord was fashioning my natural, take-charge, self-sufficient personality into a woman who now naturally follows and relies on her husband.  In the breaking of my physical body, Christ was chipping away my will.  The Potter was fashioning His clay giving me what I needed in order to have the glorious marriage that I desired.  The one flesh in our marriage grew stronger as a result of our trials.  Through the unbearable journey that the Lord took me through, the original Gift Giver knew what we needed in order to draw closer to Him, as well as to one another.

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.  Romans 8:28

Of course the Gift Giver is very generous!  Christ allowed my husband and I to endure incredible financial hardship over a span of 5 yrs. so He could mold us even more and make us better vessels to build His kingdom.

Although I surrendered my will and asked God to choose my spouse all those years ago, what I didn’t realize what that marriage, more specifically, my marriage, was to bring God glory.  You see, I didn’t have the spiritual maturity to understand that concept over 14 years ago, but today I do.

It was the Gift Giver who came up with the concept of marriage.  The Great I Am, the Creator of the Universe said,  “It is not good that man should be alone; I will make him a helper comparable to him.” (Gen. 2:18) Marriage was created by God and it exists not just for the sole purpose of bringing forth Godly offspring, but for us as God’s dear children to bring Christ glory in all our circumstances.

All things were created by him and for him.  Colossians 1:16

Now I’d be lying to you if I told you what the Lord has taken us through has been easy, but again, dying to yourself is never easy.  Learning contentment is the last thing we naturally seek to do when we’re faced with loss, broken dreams, and pain.  Walking the Narrow Path and being in the center of God’s will does not mean life will always feel good.  A prime example of this is Job’s life.

And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God.  Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.  Romans 5:2-5

But God has given us a gift…

My life’s circumstances have shaped me and through the sufferings that I’ve endured God has given me a gift.  As the Potter has molded, refined, and purged me,  I am now a vessel that better resembles her Maker.  God has answered my prayers; prayers to be more like Him.

Oh friend, no matter your trials, heartaches, or the uncertainties you may be facing, I encourage you this Christmas season to bask in the presence of the Gift Giver and enjoy the marital present He has blessed you with!

Marriage is a gift given to us by God.

Photo credit: kelp1966 / Foter / CC BY-ND

Comments

  1. Jolene, I can relate to your story so much! A few weeks into my marriage I developed debilitating migraines and panic attacks. Now, as I look back on that time (not too fondly) I am so grateful for the man God put in my life to handle these attacks and for where the Lord has brought us together as a couple since that time. Marriage, for better and for worse, is such a wonderful gift. :)

  2. Thank you for sharing! Your faith is amazing and inspiring. :)

  3. Jolene Engle says:

    Hi Mikah,
    Oh, kindred spirits! Yes, through our weaknesses we can either draw closer to God and our husband or go in the opposite direction. So blessed to hear that you’ve chosen the right path even in the midst of difficulty.

  4. Bonnie, I’m just a weak vessel running into the arms of my strong Savior! So blessed to hear this ministered to you.

  5. Jolene ~ We need to talk! So much of what you and your husband went through is similar to what my husband and I have experienced and are experiencing. And although the days have been quite dark at times, I am so thankful that God loves us enough that He continues to mold and shape us into His Beloved Children, He doesn’t leave us in our sin. Praising God for you and your ministry! FYI – On December 19th, 1997 – I received the call from the adoption agency telling me my beautiful baby girl was born. Tomorrow we will celebrate her birthday (It’s always a celebration) and I will be thinking of you and wishing you a blessed day as you celebrate your anniversary! God bless ~

  6. Hi Ronda,
    It’s always nice to meet another woman of God who has experienced similar trials than I! So much understanding of the pain and dark times, the growth produced in one’s life, as well as experiencing God’s glory. We would so ‘get’ each other! How awesome about your daughter too. :)

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